Whatever road I take, the guiding star is within me;
the guiding star and the loadstone which point the way.
They point in but one direction.
They point to me.
- Ayn Rand
(the stars will guide you)
Tila naumpog na hinliliit sa kanto ng mesa ang pakiramdam
Keber kung ala singko'y shampoot sabon ang agahan
Paano bang ito'y kakawaya't iisnabin ng hmmmp lamang
Kung ang maging bulok na patatas ay langit sa kutsong tunay naman
Posted by missO at 04:45 PM on November 16, 2009
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hubad mong sinasayawa't inaakit ang aking isipan
ako'y nililipad ng kilig, naka-angkas sa walis mong tangan ng marahan
habang akap ko ang ulap na ikaw, binuo ng aking isipan
naamoy bango ng yong pangakong sakit, gulo't kasiyahan
sa pagyakap nitong mga salita sa puso mo't kaluluwa
ako'y iwan mo ng kaunting pag-asa gamit ang de-kuryenteng pluma
sumpa mong bukas sa ilang milyong pusong pagal
sa akin nawa'y maging oda'ng sing ganda ng rosal
Posted by missO at 10:34 PM on November 15, 2009
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I have the tendency to spoil things that are supposed to be fun, plain and simple. I don't know why. To probably make it last forever, I think.
Posted by missO at 02:27 PM on November 15, 2009
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Pacquiao winning his fight with Cotto, led me to the conclusion that he sold his soul to the devil, and the devil's gaining more than just the normal interest.
Posted by missO at 01:48 PM on November 15, 2009
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I could still remember the night that I fell. I fell real straight unto the grounds and found that there's nothing more to have another stand, all I realized is that I couldn't stand and I am still conscious just as my whole body is conscious but just that my thighs are not functioning as they must be.
A few days ago, where we are still enjoying the very long semester break (approx 2 weeks) that I have started feeling a little pain along my thighs and all I thought is that they must just be the product of exerting much effort in badminton that I played along those days. Despite the pain that I am feeling along those days, I didn't mind it because all I thought is that it's just a little pain and there's no fuss to it, and there was much of those walks that I did, because as always, I would prefer walking rather than riding, two whole days of long walks and I could still stand it. But ... I'm wrong, because this is something dangerous if I haven't been rushed down to the emergency room on the Tuesday night.
Potassium deficiency - hypokalemia. It was on the Tuesday night, after walking and standing the whole day and on that night I could still walk freely without much stress as I have climbed straight up into our dorm of 5 floors and there were no symptoms of danger. That night gladly, I have with me lots of people eating dinner otherwise I might be in deep shit.
With me are my classmates as well as dorm mates, and I have to name them and recognize them and be very much in gratitude to them, they are: Bernard, Roy (Dorm mates), Mycel (classmate), Marlie (a friend). They were there for me until my parents arrived from home at around 2 am, they accompanied me and helped me conquer my extreme fear of needles, they were there to carry me.
It was around 8:30 that we finished dinner and I tried standing up first while they are chattering, I was able to stand up, but I tried to walk down the isle along the eatery and I suddenly collapsed down into a squat position. I tried standing up from that position and I fell and rolled a little along the dirty grounds, and they noticed it and carried me to the chair and let my legs to rest for a while. Around 9pm that we were finally finished chattering and we are about to leave the place, I tried again standing up while the two boys are there assisting me to stand up, I thought I could, but immediately, my legs collapsed and finally surrendered the fight. I have my friends brought me from P. Campa down to UST Hospital at Lacson through a tricycle, they were there until my parents arrived, they chatter with me there in the hospital, accompanied me, and lost their sleeping as well as reviewing time due to my incapacity.
I am really sorry guys to be such a hassle to you! But I'm really thankful that you're all there with me and let me relax in the face of the blood extraction as well as during the injection of the intravenous medication.
Around 2 am that my results from the blood test were released and finally known that I am deeply deficient of potassium, my result is 2.5 out of the normal 3.5-5. Thus I have to be cured intravenously and oral medication is no longer applicable. I persisted at first not to let my parents know my current situation because I thought that it would only need oral medications and there's no need to be confined. But the results came and there's really the need to be confined that I was pushed by the doctors as well as the nurses to call home and inform my parents.
I am very thankful to all those who VISITED me in the hospital, the following is listed in time chronology:
1. Mycel Aritcheta
2. Jannelyn Lim & Lanie Yu
3. My Aunties
4. Lanie Yu and Lara
5. Romerson Donghil, Dana Garucha, Ransley Lota & Kimberly Hennessy
6. Crystal Gonzales & Ma'am Anne
7. Jane Sy and her classmates
8. Cristina Ong & Marc Acebuche
9. My Cousin
I was once again capable of walking on November 11 and was discharged on November 12 but my doctor told me not to enter classes yet on November 13 as I still need to rest.
To those who didn't visit but texted me or chatted with me I am still thankful, the following is the list without any chronology:
1. Allain Mallari
2. Richard Ragragio
3. Ezekiel Navarro
4. Romerson Donghil
5. Steven Chen
6. Clarisse Panuelos
7. Mae Ogao
But of course it is good that other's didn't know because I don't want much people to worry about me, or even bother people to go to the hospital just to check me up. It's better that way.
Now, I have another banana break, bye bye!
Posted by Filbert at 10:41 PM on November 14, 2009
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Nais kong maging maligaya't malaya panandali, katulad ng sa ligayang lumalandi sa kumakaripas na dagang bahay habang ninamnam ang unang singhap sa simoy ng kalayaan, ilang segundo bago magsumilsik at bumarena sa kaniyang laman ang mainit na tae ng sana'y kabaliktaran at malamig na pinsan ng water gun, tulad ng barbecue stick sa barbecue'ng hilaw pa ang laman.
Posted by missO at 03:04 PM on November 14, 2009
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I am so f***ng retarded. I am really exhausted memorizing those basic nursing skills. I don't know why. It's maybe because of the crazy schedule I have for this silly demonstrations. Like today I have to get my ass off for 3 in the afternoon because I have to perform only one skill, chest tube care. With just one skill I have to experience the burden of taking a bath, memorizing 21 skill procedure, brushing my teeth, and spending my 3 hours on the school. Imagine?.
At least I am done with almost 5 nursing skills already. And what's more worst is we have to provide the supplies needed on our return demonstrations. I really need money this season. I have a large list of my wishes today, that I myself is subjected to buy them. Darn! Who the hell will give me a piece og headset from bose', a bag from adidas and a pair of shoes from adidas also. But on the top my list is a jacket with a hood from adidas. Luckily I have $50 and 750 php on hand. But it was not enough to buy those things I have written on my wishlist. I need to find my ninongs and ninangs this christmas.
Another thing is I have a hard time allocating my time for such occassions, like going to my highschool friend's house, due to my loaded and fucking busy schedule. I am really praying hard that I could graduate already. You know! so that I can feel the air of liberty and the freedom from those large books, from the patients in the hospital and from those people who really pissed my ass off in my college.
Well, that's it for today!
Posted by manoelster at 11:24 AM on November 14, 2009
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Pangarap kong muli'y makasakay, doon sa sakayan ng jeep.
Kung saan hindi aandar hanggat hindi puno and trip
Templong afro'ng malilim, mainit man o maulan
Pila ma'y mahaba't, kasunod na toratora'y mabagal
I wish the people blurred and the screaming lullabyes last
Never notice who's beside me, and who's staring whose ass
Wasted rides, fares and times, I wish they'd stop
Doon sa sakayan ng jeep, wish I could x the now, play the past.
Posted by missO at 08:48 PM on November 8, 2009
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