Lost sight, new dreams.
Posted by tal at 06:29 PM on October 8, 2004
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Pero i'm proud to say naka 95 yan! Pinasulat kami ng isang event na nakapagpachange sa buhay namin.
I started to lose my perfect vision that summer when I grew fond of reading the old and dusty romantic novels stacked quietly in the corner of my sister's room. And from that moment on, I have always dreamt of romantic dinners, red roses, beautiful dances, and even fairytale weddings. I was a hopeless romantic.
I drowned myself with thoughts of my knight in his shining armor rescuing me from my boring school life. And finally, he appeared in front of me just when I was about to celebrate my 14th birthday. He was the nicest thing my eyes have ever set on, that time. He became my bestfriend, and he eventually ended up in a promise with me. I was so young then. But like most of the youth today, I pretended to be blind to the reflection of my innocence.
He became my world, that I forgot about my studies, my friends, my family, myself, and even my Creator. I suffered the consequences of failing subjects, losing friends (who were against him), breaking my parents' trust, dealing with my own conscience, as well as turning down God's invitation to His party. The biggest sacrifice I went through was when I destroyed my own reputation and lost my face in front of everybody. I was caught red-handed with a school offense, known to all as PDA. In return, was disqualified from the honors' list, and was even removed from my position in the high school student council. Worse, I even lost a father, who refused to treat me as his daughter for several weeks. I was a total waste - completely wrecked and torn into pieces.
Still, I was stubborn and stupid to continue my uest to conquer love, though unprepared, weak, and obviously naive. Again, I pretended to be strong and I even risked everything that was left of me.
Then suddenly, everything stopped. He broke his promise as fast as a blink of an eye, with reasons I never understood. Yes, everything I went through, the things I've given up to materialize my childish dreams, suddenly became puffs of smoke that soon vanished out of the blue.
But as the puffs of smoke disappeared, a new world revealed itself in front of me. I was brought back to reality where my friends and my family welcomed me with warm smiles and open arms. It felt so wonderful that I finally forgot about my dreams, which I realize now as an unforgetful nightmare.
But then I am thankful because that nightmare was actually a blessing in disguise. With it, I realized that there were people around me who love me unconditionally. God was even there, handing me another invitation. I was given another chance, another opportunity, a new chapter.
Here I am now, stronger and full of hope and happiness. I've grown to be more mature. I'm finally heading to the horizon of the more important things in life. It has become my destination - my new dream. This time, I'll make sure I'm in the right direction, and that nobody hinders my way.
Maybe I lost my perfect vision when I was dreaming of nonsense I have been discussing earlier. But it was what I needed. Without as much sense of sight, I was able to use and appreciate God's other gifts. I learned how to talk and walk, to listen and to feel, and even how to fly high.
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Para sa mga fans ko.
Actually, wala pa akong pic. heehee. sa cel lang. kaya lang, walang memory card ang cel ko at wala rin akong pangconnect sa cel papuntang computer. wala rin po akong digicam. at webcam. neks taym nalang pwamis. (pag mahaba na ulit hair ko. :Þ)
sorry. autograph nalang, ano? send ko right away. hehe.
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